day 4

Lunchtime sitting, today. I think I prefer sitting first or last thing. Very conscious of the difference location, clothing and time can make, and it is best to optimise. That said, pretty good, today. A better ratio of focus to wandering, and what wandering there was was hazier and more fleeting than yesterday’s. Continued to work with “who am I”, though also returning to counting breaths when my attention does veer off. Noticed one moment that felt something like an opening up. Often when sitting, especially when returning after a lapse in practice, things can feel rather confined. Today there was a moment, though quite short, when the walls seemed to come down and an empty vastness came to the fore. It feels the closest thing to an answer to my question since returning to practice.