day 33

30 minutes zazen before sanzen with my teacher. Still rather distracted. Perhaps the good moment last week is keeping me from relaxing in zazen, because I’m trying to achieve it again, my teacher suggests. Work thoughts are a factor too, but it’s OK to be excited about a new job, she says. Sometimes it is easy, sometimes it is difficult. Sometimes it feels like progress, sometimes it doesn’t. But we keep going.

Discipline: 4/10.