day 30

Attempted lying meditation. At bedtime, this is fatal, or at least sleep-inducing. Tried again this morning, and managed 30 minutes, though immediately rolled over back to sleep. Fascinated by the relationship of sleep and the meditative state. I’ve probably mentioned it before, but the early stages are similar, if not the same. It’s almost like there’s a fork in the road where you choose whether to sleep or to sustain waking awareness alongside the meditative state. There are times the bell has rung and I have felt the sensation of waking up though, I am almost entirely sure, I was already awake and present. Of course, sleeping isn’t meditating. But there’s an interesting grey area to explore – alongside fully wakeful and alert zazen too, that is.

Discipline: 4/10

Note: published the next day